I would like to preface this blog post with a round of musings from my mind. It’s a scary place, consider yourself warned. I’ve been struggling lately. REALLY struggling trying to figure out what I want in life. It’s been SO fun (she says sarcastically), just ask Colby. The biggest “what I want” debate has been my vocational choice, running our Etsy shop full time and leaving corporate marketing. While I LOVE Etsy, sometimes I feel like I lost my purpose. Was I meant to be a marketer? Was I meant to be an entrepreneur? Was I meant to do something totally different? Needless to say, I keep making decisions these days and second guessing myself.
My latest decision was that I was going to quit blogging. That was a week ago, right after my blog post about the bull horns. Most days with the blog I feel like I write to no one. Or that pantry we’re building in the kitchen…you know…the one that’s coming together at a snail’s pace….nobody wants to hear about. Or really cares about. It’s trivial. So why do it? While trying to figure out my next step career wise, I’ve started asking myself why I do things. Why do I blog? Hmmmm. Good question self. Is it for the business? No, not really, although it helps. Is it for my Mom (my biggest fan…hi Mom!)? Sometimes. But mostly, it’s for myself. Blogging is my zone out me time. To write witty words and publicly journal about our home (and sometimes our lives…especially when Goose does something especially odd). So I changed my mind and decided to keep going. Although I may not post every day or every other day, maybe just once a week, but I’ll still be here blogging my little heart out to my precisely 53 followers…and my Mom!
So this little prequel to the blog post brings me to this…my 2014 Word of the Year: Intentional.
Why yes, I have jumped on the “word of the year” trumps “resolutions” bandwagon. Lord I apologize. I feel like the last three or four years of my life I’ve lost the meaning of what I do. Career wise, hobby wise, life in general wise. Even with our home. When we first bought our house we couldn’t fill it. We had small apartment furniture…cheap, particle board, small apartment furniture. Mind you, our living room used to look like this:
It pains me to post that picture. So…painful. At least my photography skills have come along a bit. But that was pretty much all the furniture we had. Then Goose ate the couch and we started to make some changes and move forward. But alot of the time, we made decorating and house decisions based on what was cheap and not necessarily because it was the best decision or what we really wanted. Case in point…our bathroom toilet nook:
It’s not bad, but it’s not great. Every time I see the nook I’m reminded that it’s not what I intended that nook to look like. I had different ideas of a gorgeous framed print and a little half moon shelf beside it with maybe a puffer fish sitting there. I found those trivets for next to nothing at a flea market and we already had the frame and picture on hand so we went for it. But I’ve always felt that nook was too busy.
Another example of lost intention…the rope shelf in our bathroom:
I blame Pinterest for this one. With all the gorgeous pics of rope shelves that I collected on my Pinterest boards, we HAD to have one. We love the shelf, it looks cute and all, but it’s not functional nor what we intended for the space. The shelf is a little tippy and we probably should anchor it. Regardless, we’ve been too scared to put anything precious on those shelves like storage jars for Q-tips and cotton balls, things that would make our vanity nook more functional. We would rather have some chunky molding like shelves up there.
And then there’s the dining room curtains:
Not the best picture but they’re kind of hard to photograph with the ginormous window there. Same thing, not what I intended. But they were cheap and fun to make with my mom.
Anyway, you get the point. So this year, I am vowing to be more intentional. Intentional with my time. No more wasting time cruising Trulia. Do they have a 12 step program for real estate addiction?! Intentional with my career. I swear I’m going to figure it out. I’m close to deciding what I really want to do career wise and have even applied to a couple of jobs…although they may be a stretch for me to get. And intentional with our home. Our home could be so much better intentionally organized and decorated. We often complain that we don’t have enough space, especially since we BOTH work from home and have our own office spaces, but we can make it work.
So to sum it up…almost quit blogging but I’m back, word of the year is “INTENTIONAL”, and yes it was justifiable to write it in all caps. If I write it in caps…maybe I’ll actually do it!
Pssst…Enough about us, what about you guys? Did you make resolutions or pick a word of the year? On a similar note, do you guys read Edie’s blog, Life In Grace? I love here blog. She and a few other bloggers picked an Un-Word Of The Year. Love that! I also just read an awesome post at The Handmade Home about why we don’t need to move up to that bigger home. I felt like she was speaking to me!